Archive for ◊ May, 2005 ◊

• Tuesday, May 31st, 2005

A LITTLE OF EVERYTHING THAT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE

Harsh day yesterday.

Don’t feel like doing much blogging(or here at least).

But thanks to a very nice *cough* gentleman, who cheered me up with his deep, sexy, husky voice, for more than freaking two-and-half hours.

*Surprise surprise surprise*

Some telcom in KuchingMalaysia would be very happy with such a customer.

Not mine. Singtel gives me free incoming call.

Not bad. I managed to freak out a new pal. Hurhurhur.

I didn’t know I was THAT much a cryptic.

And I certainly didn’t expect the call.

Sorry that I am too cheapskate to split your bills. Muahahaha

Thanks. :) Much appreciated.

***

Kenny Sia loves flowerpod and wants to be a podder.

He deems it’s like eavedropping females’ conversations in the ladies.

That guy is weird perversive sensitive new age guy in the making.

***

Milan trip is cancelled.

I would have been in Milan on 28th May.

So I thought of postponing it, to 6th June.

It was supposed to be a hush hush trip.

Yet again, I couldn’t get away last minute cos something came up.

Paolo, who had offered accomodation to me would not be around for the delayed date, cos he would be heading to America for Laguna Seca MotoGP, and I have no choice but to cancel my trip.

Totally.

So, no more Milan trip for me.

How disappointing.

I really need to get away.

***

I didn’t get the assignment I had hoped to boost my income.

Strangely, it was the least disappointing of all.


***

No, I don’t think he is gonna call.

And yes, I think he blocked me.

Yes, I am paranoid.

I am sure that’s what he did.

Friends come and go.

How disappointing can that be?

***

Mr KG was online last night.

That was the final straw on the camel’s back.

It’s rather funny how a telephone conversation with an old pal earlier yesterday brought up the subject of him, and there he was, online yesterday.

I bit my lip and went on with the conversation and I am amazed how we could be so cool and pretentious about everything.

I do care much about him, really.

But is it mutual?

Will we ever meet again?

***

I don’t think I said anything wrong, cos I thought I was saying whatever that was cued in the conversation by the other 2 who were in it.

In fact, I think that was a personal opinion on my part to set the record straight.

No one had a great day, including me.

Yah, another disappointment.

We often overlook others’ despair when we are too engrossed in our own problems.

***

I get tired too.

One.

Whee.

And Two.

Wheeeeeeee.

The call came in.

And I forgot about it temporarily.

Call ended. Back online.

Third came in between the ICQ messages.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Not enough. Tsk tsk.

I still couldn’t cry.

***

Weird dreams.

Weird, weird dreams.

Hurhurhur. Apparently, they were the only thing that cheered me up.

Remember the person I had dreamt for 3 consecutive nights?

I dreamt of him again, today.

I can’t remember if I dreamt of him yesterday, or else it would be dreaming of him for 5 consecutive days.

Not healthy.

Very unhealthy.

He didn’t appear in my dreams until morning.

How I know?

The moment he appeared, I could feel my heart fluttered.

In the dream, that is.

Suddenly.

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGG.

It was the blardy phone.

In real life.

I picked it up. McDonald’s gonna send me my breakfast at 8.45am, she said.

Cussing slightly within, I replied how I had asked for it to be delivered at 10.45am over the phone yesterday.

She apologised and hung up.

The last scene lingered in my head.

I heaved a sigh of relent.

Of all moments.

I cuddled the baby pillow tight, and pulled the duvet over me.

Within the next 5 seconds, I drifted off.

The scene was exact same scene.

The person was still standing there, just like the moment he made the entrance.

Cool. It was as if someone pressed the pause button.

The dream continued.

We were both cool and aloof to each other.

Attraction was there, but no one verbalised it.

It wasn’t the sweet, tender kind of attraction.

But something, rather, dangerous. Peppered with lotsa passion.

It was in a building, something out of my own imagination, not in real life.

Somewhere, where he works(in the dream).

But no, he wasn’t an executive.

We were staring at each other from a distant, and I shunned his intense stare.

Not possible. I warned myself. Run, run.

I didn’t.

We said hi.

And the awkward exchange of greeting kisses evolved into a lingering embrace.

Then a tender kiss.

Then there were tongues.

Then there was some sort of intimacy.

He carressed my chest.

It was as if I could feel it in real life.

Creepy.

We were scantily clad, but there was no explicit scenes involved.

So, stop your imagination before it ran too wild.

I dwelled in his embrace, and I immensed myself in each and every moment of the sinful indulgence of his cuddle.

Eyes closed.

Suddenly, someone called out to him.

It was one of the security guards, asking him about something.

I drew myself away, as if suddenly awoken, and was terribly shy.

He tried to call out to me when I teared myself away from him, stopping myself from falling further for him.

Then, the alarm rang.

10.40am.

Before I knew it, I heard the door bell.

McDonald’s is pretty on time, I reckon.

Freaky.

I didn’t expect to have such a dream.

Not with the subject in question, anyway.

Totally different from the past 3 days of dreams, which was always filled with tension but no real interaction.

Funny how the 3 days of dreams kinda build up the attraction and tension for today’s episode.

Perhaps, I should sleep right now.

At least, I get some affection and solace, from my dreams.

***

I can’t believe how much I ate.

-burp-

I wonder if they did drug my food for being a difficult customer.

It was sprints to the loo after breakfast.

***

Some many moons ago, Gracie and I attended a friend’s ROM.

I could still remember the hilarious episode when we were trying to look for a certain changi chalet.

And now, I am thrilled to know that Wilson is now a daddy!

And his little gem is sooooo lovely.

SOO SOOO SOOOO LOVELY.

I want one too.

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• Monday, May 30th, 2005

THE BIG BREAKFAST LETDOWN

Pried open my stubborn eyes, and the time on my handphone greeted 10.14am.

For once, I am normal.

It was made possible when fatigue finally overwhelmed me last night at 1am, and I finally decided I shall wind my body clock back to normal.

No more Attica for me this week, I decided.

*cough*

Abstinence from clubbing, I shall.

And I will.

Have to, you see. Will be rather packed with activities this coming couple of weeks(I hope), and a healthier lifestyle would do me good.

The morning sun sept through the curtains, and blinded me.

I dragged my bones and skin and lard off the bed, and kickstarted the day by putting the washings into the machine.

Feeling in the mood to pamper myself for the day, I dialed 100 for the telephone directory, and asked for the delivery number of the famous golden arch.

I had been craving for their breakfast since… since… since… forever.

It was 10.45am, just in time for the last orders for breakfast.

Since there’s a required minimum order, *cough* a Big Breakfast set meal, a Hot cakes set meal, and a Egg McMuffin swiftly made it to the order sheet.

I happily rescued the vacuum cleaner from the corner it was isolated in for the longest time, and sucked every of the corners of the house clean.

I stripped the mattress of its yellow coat, and gave it a blue makeover.

I dipped deep into the pile of damp laundry, and hung them up to dry in the scorching noon sun.

The warm weather quickly dehydrated the mopped floor.

I huffed, and puffed. In between pants, my cravings for the extensive breakfast bugged.

What a way to reward myself, I thought.

I deserve to eat that much after all the chores!

Yay!

But, it was more than an hour after my orders were placed. Tsk.

I called up and checked on my order.

They called me back to tell me their fax machine had a glitch, and my orders weren’t processed. They didn’t know I ordered until I called to check more than an hour later.

*UTTER ABHORRENCE*

Grrr………………….

Hell hath no fury like a hungry woman after extensive chores.

And the most disappointing thing of all?

It was already past 12 noon, and that meant it would be impossible for them to get food from the breakfast menu for me.

*Wails* *Sobs* *Pouts*

They then asked if I would like to have the lunch menu, and I declined saying I would rather cancel my orders cos I was craving for their breakfast.

I sounded VERY disappointed.

She then offered a complimentary lunch, which I declined cos I didn’t really want anything from their lunch menu.

In between apologies, she then offered to send the same order for breakfast for me tomorrow.

Which I accepted immediately.

Wahahahaha, anyone wanna join me for breakfast tomorrow?

I ordered 3 people’s share, ya know.

No, I am not a cheapskate. I stuck to my original order today, that’s why. Aren’t you disgusted by the amount I eat?

I am so disappointed…………. It was my first time calling up the delivery service of the golden arch, ya know.

*pouts*

So now, I am craving for my Char Kuey Tiao, which I had desired since… since… since… forever.

*POUTS*

But dad just called to say he would buy lunch for me, and I just might be appeased today.

Yippeeeeeeeeeee.

So, I would be up early tomorrow to handwash the dresses, scrubbed the toilet bowl, bathtubs and sinks, and have a fulfilling breakfast.

*Rubs hands in glee*

***

I still am quite paranoid about losing my pictures of my friends. Urgh.

***

Take note of the sitemeter counter beneath, It might just turn 6-figures in these couple of days.

***

Left home late on Saturday.

Received a message from Mr Ex-Boyfriend that he saw me ’somewhere’. I am amazed by his eyes for details.

Interesting.

Met up with Janice to head down to you-know-where. I picked her up from City Hall MRT on a cab.

Was still pretty stoned from the heavy bout of emotions I carried with me.

It was a pretty quiet dinner we had at the golden arch in Liang Court.

Somehow, we are people who hide emotions well(sometimes), and we quickly perked up to glam the streets and club right after that, burying whatever floating thoughts that night.

Was pretty pale that night.

We sat around at the bar, and it was irritating.

We couldn’t quite have a decent conversation without anyone intruding.

I can’t even remember the people who came up to us, and said meaningless ‘You are very attractive, and I seldom say that.’, ‘We have seen girls from Las Vegas to Singapore, and trust us when we say you girls are gorgeous’.

We have seen guys from all over the world, and trust us when we say your words hold no weight, and are just to path your ways to get into our pants.

I stuck to my orange juice and declined their drinks offer.

We ended up talking to each other and the males would just disperse into the crowd after seeing how cold and aloof we were.

Bumped into ChengEn, and for the first time, we finally met. I first acquainted him over Singaporebikes.com some couple of years back, but he had never seen me before, despite our occasional MSN chats.

Jan and I then downed 2 kamikazes consecutively, and the 2nd one was so potent that we were so heavy-headed that we *gasp* fell asleep.

For one whole freaking hour.

2 glam ladies clad in black outfits lying on the soft cushions at the open bar outside were quite a sight, but luckily not much people saw that.

I hope no one heard my snores, either.

Hakim saw us sleeping out there, and commented we looked a pleasant sight… of lesbians.

We woke up with Jasmine waking us up, and we took a walk down Clarke Quay to absorb the night’s beauty, and to sober ourselves for a while.

Headed back to the dance floor, and the music was pretty fabulous for the night.

Bumped into David and it was exchange of greeting kisses which led to a great loss of my new lick of gloss, and I had a nasty knock to my nose when we accidentally knock into each other.

It was utter horror when I met the Spanish guy who stays in the same estate as I do.

He then asked if Janice and I are together, and if we actually sleep together.

!*&@#^$%!%#%$!#

Arsehole.

We finally left at around 5am, after being bugged by these 3 guys who asked if we wanna join their ‘post party’.

We declined with rolled eyes, no less.

Surprisingly, the cleaner who was sweeping the floor bade us goodbye, and I thought he was being really sweet. :)

Left with Sean for supper at Newton.

We walked past Mr Spanish Neighbour who asked, ‘Don’t tell me you’re leaving with him?!’

Why? Cannot huh?

We headed down to Newton for supper and saw the guys who asked us if we wanna join their ‘post party’……..

Bleah.

But they didn’t see us, obviously.

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Sean and me.

The skies were already litted.

All 3 of us headed to the MRT station and I took the north-bound train together with them.

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We took like 176354 pictures before we finally took one that’s acceptable and not too blurred.

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We decided to do one with our ugliest faces.

Really. Quite. So.

I was the last to alight, obviously, and it was 8.20am by the time I finally reached home.

Bathed. Washed my hair.

Dried it.

Blarblarblar. The works.

It was 9 plus.

I then piled on fresh makeup, got changed.

And it was another extensive train ride to Dhoby Ghaut again.

Church.

I don’t know why the great urge to be in church again.

Though I was alone most of the time, and feeling out of place and rather awkward, I still enjoyed it.

I managed to stay wide awake throughout.

I even managed to carry darling Zoe in my arms.

Read a couple of children’s stories to Zachary…

Children always bring such joy.

Awwwwwwww…….. I want a baby!!

And after dreaming of carrying a baby the day before, I dreamt that I cuddled another one in my arms last night.

They bring such immense comfort.

Caught up a little with fellow church members, and had lunch with Serene, Ben and Zachary.

Got home in the heavy shower.

Looking at the surroundings mellowed by the heavy downpour, was quite a bliss, don’t you think?

A 3-hour nap didn’t last me through the night.

Ah well…

Great Singapore Sales is on.

I don’t feel much about it.

Nor do I intend to check out the bargains.

Is something wrong with me, or something?

Tsk.

The author had forgotten to add that she was on a major AlanTingism high on Saturday at Attica cos she had seen a Caucasian who resembles soooooooooooo much like Alan.

So much so that, I didn’t stop looking at him, and Janice purposely led me past him and held my hand to brush slightly past his butt.

GOSH.

He really looks like Alan. But he is more bulky in build.

OH MAN.

If he had chatted to me, I wouldn’t snub him, really.

Anyway. My supposed holiday plans is totally scrapped.

Crap.

I had my share of Char Kuey Tiao for lunch, finally.

Man. Sigh. That’s the only good news for the day.

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• Saturday, May 28th, 2005

DELAYED RECAP

Am not really in the right condition to blog, and you may expect real short and straight to the point recaps from me.

Then again, when Ting says ’short’, you can’t really believe in that, yuh?

Wednesday was pretty bizarre in my opinion, despite everything that went on normally.

Rushed off to the agency for some audition with some of the Korean bosses of a particular brand of gadgets.

Bumped into a friend and the lovely lass launched a chat with me over Mr Ex Boyfriend, who had messaged her to befriend her over, hear this, friendster.

Apparently, he told me he saw her friendster consists of mostly guys, so he messaged to ask her why, and they got acquainted from there.

Coincidentally, she was from my agency, and saw our friendsters linked. Small world.

No, I do not have anything against people who message people over friendster, but a stranger messaging you and trying to sound intelligent is quite a turn-off, don’t you think?

Especially someone who is dead against clubbing cos he thinks clubbing is meant for people who are trying to ‘hunt’ and to be ‘hunted’, a place for guys to know girls.

Returning to the agency is a daunting task.

I was warned to beware of my double chin.

To the extend they took out the ladder to shoot me from above.

Despite slimming down, my weight still hovers around 55kg.

It’s quite weird eh? My weight was 55kg when my waist was 27 inches, butt 36 inches.

Despite now waist being -cough- 24 inches, and butt 34 and half, my weight is still 55kg.

No, nothing up THERE. They shrunk too, alright.

I pity my arms, and my thighs.

Or else, I should be glad that I grew brains.

Then, another lady in the agency saw me, and she matter-of-factly mentioned that it would be better if I am a tad slimmer.

Aftering weighing myself, she commented I should lose 5 more kg, ideally.

Thanks.

Ouch.

Met up with Raf in Orchard, and took fancy to 2 dresses I tried at Guess.

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I walked out of the trying room and it was totally sheer. You could see everything that was underneath cos of the knit.

Some guy was browsing the items on the clothes rack which was right outside of the trying rooms.

He accidentally caught sight of me and let out a loud -gasp- ‘Wow’ or some sort, before realising his reaction was rather intrusive and snuck away.

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I really like the cheery colours and such.

And despite finding it rather reasonably priced, the very broke one had to leave the shop empty handed.

Shopped around takashimaya for a bit, and I got some pictures developed out of my camera memory card.

But I am absolutely freaking pissed that, my pictures were STOLEN!!!!!

Can you blardy believe it?

No, I didn’t drop them, though I am usually clumsy and a doofus at heart.

I had one set of mini-pictures printed, and I put those dearer to me together with my passport.

I went into Malaysia yesterday and then I checked it when I was leaving Malaysia, and it was still with me.

By the time I crossed the checkpoint in Singapore, it was no longer with me!

Don’t tell me it fell off, cos I put it together with my disembarkment card, and the card was still very much intact.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. some are rather private(not THAT kind) and precious pictures of my friends!!!

Attica then beckoned, and we headed down.

A boring night not worth mentioning.

I ended up sitting outside the area alone, feeling absolutely foul, thinking, and dwelling into issues that bugged me.

Let’s skip whatever in between. When I left finally, it was pouring.

Jamail was asking what was bothering me, and we chatted.

David(the shorter one) was then leaving and offered a ride back.

One, I don’t take rides from people I don’t know well, alone.

Two, he was obviously pretty intoxicated and I didn’t want to end up dead in a traffic accident.

Three, I had wanted to continue talking to Jamail.

I saw the man tripped and had a great fall in the rain when he crossed over the road.

Quite hilarious.

15 minutes on, he called again to offer to send me back, but by then, I was already pretty much in tears and still yakking away with Jamail. So, no.

Many people were standing under the shelter, not sure to get themselves drenched in the rain. I didn’t care. I strolled slowly in the rain, and headed to the waiting cab.

Liberating. Fun.

Peeled away the wet clothes, showered.

Sat down on the floor, and played my newest CD.

Stoned.

No pain.

Bawled.

***

Woke up on Thursday, and the only reminder to what happened the night before were the slight marks, and it was hard to believe that I pulled through the night before amidst all the tangled emotions.

I must have fell asleep in between sobs. Glasses were still on.

Quite bizarre.

I mean, it didn’t feel like anything happened.

But, I still feel empty.

Not sure if I wanna take up Mei’s offer of KTV, but I thought getting out of the house might do me good.

Was feeling a tad bad cos my roller-coaster mood varied.

I felt obliged not to be a spoilsport, yet I get my quiet, dazing moments on and off.

Still, they were quite understanding, and I was yakking non-stop away at the end of it, though feeling a tad exhausted from the efforts of doing so.

Got home, not feeling any wants to talk.

***

Lunch at Ngee Ann on Friday.

With Janice, and Mr Anonymous. I once labelled him JT cos ……. of.. I can’t say.

Now, I decided to code him SHC, or rather, SC would do.

Sexy hairy chest.

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Mr SC is shy. Very shy.

He didn’t quite like our company, I decided.

The quiet, act-cool man was quite adamant that he would not want to lunch with us again.

To think we walked him to where he was going before finally leaving for Holland Vilage.

Alright, he was just too traumatised by our kooky ways, I guess.

Then again, he was nice, as usual. Shall have lunch again, soon.

Went to Essential Brews to chill.

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We were supposed to have dinner with Bruce, and I suggested Holland Village.

Alas, Mr Bruce was unable to make it.

So we had a lengthy noon there.

Janice taught me the tricks to photoshop, and man, was I amazed.

We then bitched the noon away, indulged in some melancholic talks, and feeling pretty blue.

Adjourned to Brekos.

Was feeling a tad lethargic by then, and we scribbled nonsense on a piece of paper, with me trying to recall the birthdates of every single guy I once fancied. Or still do.

We even jotted down the year when we met them. Muahaha.

I am amazed by my memory space.

In awe of it, actually.

I saw the huge gap between 2001-2005.

Apparently 2005 itself made up for them.

Muahahahahaha.

We shared a piece of chocolate cake.

The reaction from me?

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Total dissatisfaction!!!

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKS.

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I should have stuck to my boney cake from NYDC! *pouts* *frowns*

Never stray!

Was so bored that we had a silly AND crude conversation on paper cos we were so lazy to reply on speech.

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It started out with:

Ting: I am bored and tired
Jan: I am boring lor..
Ting: Yah..

And her response?

Sorry, no translation for you if your Chinese ability is crap or that you are not a Chinese.

Mostly are words to put each other down, and direct(and lame) translations of swear words.

We ended it off dramatically with Janice saying ‘Obiwankenobi!’.

I returned the ‘curse’ with? YODAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

It became dry and I gave up, and suggested home.

Went into Malaysia briefly, and got my pictures stolen.

Bleah.

Was very, very tired, but somehow, I stayed up till pretty late with a sincere chat with a new pal(eh, can divulge identity or not?!).

It’s hard to get a sincere chat pal these days, and that bit of fatigue was gone pretty swiftly with a nice chat partner.

***

Next 2 weeks are gonna be pretty crucial for me.

Sadly, for that, I will be giving up something I had been planning, and had always wanted to do.

Bah.

Maybe, I should just see how things go from here.

Sigh.

Then again, it might be a blessing in disguise. *wink*

For you guys too, I think.

***

Who have yet to read this on Tripleperiod’s blog?

To quote him:

Terms and Conditions Apply:
- Only single, eligible ladies need apply.
- Applicants must be age 21 and above at time of date.
- Should the winner be found to be attached at the time of the date, all-expense-paid clause will be null and void. Date will be Dutch.
- Tripleperiod reserves the final rights, at any time, to swap the dinner date event with another event of similar nature albeit not necessary with the same cost.

To Apply
- Kindly attach a photo of yourself and email me at tripleperiod@gmail.com
- An essay of any length on the topic “Why I Deserve The Love of A SNAG?”
- An short write-up about yourself, your dreams, ambitions and ideology
- Indicate your blog(if any). Bloggers do gain cookie points, to a certain extent
- Your sincerity

*cough* Jan, there’s some things you don’t fulfil!!

Me?

Single? Freaking absolutely so.
21 and above? As much as I hate to admit, I am already way over that.
Despite being single, I don’t mind going dutch either. Muahaha.
Char Kuey Tiao dinner, I also don’t mind.
Sincerity. A lot.

But!!!

I don’t want to send in pictures, so I have no choice but *sob* pull myself out of the competition.

But,

will anyone mind if I put on a similar contest to get guys to treat me to dinner instead?!

Wahahahahahaha.

Eye for a Guy online contest!

Win a date with Ting! Date Ting!

Whee!

***

I had really strange dreams these days.

I dreamt of someone unlikely for consecutive 3 days.

I had a bizarre dream of me holding a handicapped, limbless black baby.

I remember him being really cute, and I held him preciously close to me.

I wish I can decipher dreams.

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• Thursday, May 26th, 2005

WHY I AM THE ONE FOR KENNY SIA

*Cough*

Was at the agency yesterday afternoon when I saw this.

Apparently, I missed it when it was out on the papers some couple of months ago.

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Hurhurhur, see! I endorse Kuching!

(Muahahaha, yes, only my back, no full frontal profile for me to swirl)

And we all know the most eligible bachelor of blogosphere is from…?

Kuching!

I knew it.

We are meant for each other.

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• Thursday, May 26th, 2005

A SUDDEN BOUT OF DEPRESSION

So sudden that I didn’t see it coming.

I walked out of it, didn’t I?

It’s back, apparently.

Creeping onto my back sneakily.

And ‘BAM!’, it caught me by surprise.

Trust me, it could have been a good and fabulous day.

It could have been.

I even thought of the things I wanna blog, the things I wanna laugh about, the things that happened, the many, many things.

But I don’t know why.

I seriously still can’t fathom why.

It came. Just like that.

No reason. No signs. No nothing.

I don’t want to hear you guys preach. Don’t start, please.

DON’T!

I know you guys are concerned. Consolations and words of what I should be doing? I know them darn well too.

My first sobfest in months.

I succumbed to the weakling in me despite the reluctance to bow down to that defense I built up over the past months.

Everything crumbled.

I felt great reluctance to return to home.

I stared into the breeze that brought the warnings of rain. Blankly.

I am not a smoker. But I fagged. Once.

I walked in the drizzle, unable to feel my soul.

Giving Jamail a goodbye hug, I giggled hard to hold back the tears.

But no, I sniffed hard and I cried a little.

I wished the rain could sober me up.

It didn’t.

It only blurred my vision further with the ruined mascara.

I could barely feel the cold as the wet clothes caressed my skin in the cab.

I can’t remember how I showered, washed up nor changed.

It was a blur how Liverpool won the finals.

I plunged, badly.

I wept. I sobbed. I bawled.

Finally.

An exhausted pair of lungs.

Brain didn’t get fresh air.

A tightly squeezed heart that’s hardly beating.

Cold, very cold.

And the 3 fresh wounds that made my day.

Whee.

I fell. Badly.

Hm, am I still alive?

Why do I not feel the pain?

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• Tuesday, May 24th, 2005

HAVE I SLEPT? HAVE I NOT?

Yes, T.I.N.G. - Towards Internationalisation, Nationalisation, and Globalisation, again.

Blogger here has ran out of creativity, eagerness to blog, and is low on energy level.

Oh really?

Take this. I woke up at 8pm on Monday, was dozing off on and off since then, feeling drowsy again at 12 midnight, and fell asleep right in front of my monitor.

Woke up around 4 plus, and am awake till now, after a telephone conversation with Sean someone who would prefer to be anonymous.

To quote him, ‘….for the 3rd time since i started work, tis same 3 ladies sat at 1 of the tables i was in charged of… i remembered dem cuz dey kept on ordering orange juices after orange juices after orange juices…

Oooo. What an impression we left.

So have I slept, or have I not?

I no longer know.

Everyone is pretty much sick of my constant reports and reviews of my clubbing ways, I know.

I am proud terribly sorry to announce that… you have yet to see the end of it.

It wasn’t my intention to hit the club on 2 consecutive days till the last songs spun to a stop. But hell, I blardy did.

No, I am not morphing into a party animal. Maybe that’s because I am already one.

Or maybe, the great reluctance to stay home is getting to me a tad too much. But com’on, it’s the holidays!

And, we seriously did not forsee that we would end up at Attica again on Saturday night.

Really, we didn’t.

So much so that I was in jeans, and a simple top, which was totally unglam for a night of intense partying.

I was in a devastating mood. I didn’t care.

Mr New Zealander was already waiting in his regular pub in Duxton when 2 of us strutted into the pub at 9.30pm.

Apparently, he didn’t receive my earlier message to confirm that we would be meeting up, and that we would reach after 9pm, cos we would be having dinner at Raffles City first.

Alas, he didn’t receive the message at all. It was said that his estranged wife had deleted the message away.

Thankfully, he stayed on in the pub and we were still able to meet him there.

As usual, conversations were never dry with Bruce around, and his witty and acute sense of sarcasm pretty much spiced the evening up.

It was there, where I fixed my eyes on the television with the telecast of the big match, and Bruce and Janice wouldn’t stop rolling their eyes, and they even joked with the staffs, asking how much would it cost to shut all the televisions in the pub.

Horrid pals, I have.

My gaze plastered to the screen, and they contemplated to abandon me in the pub, knowing I wouldn’t leave.

But they didn’t.

So it was games of pool, with Janice dominating the pool table with her beginner’s luck. Somehow, the people playing with her would clear the table, but with the last black ball going in anywhere but the supposed pocket.

Bruce left before we finished the game, and with Janice being forced to continue on the games with new contenders, it was past midnight when she finally finished her last game.

Felt slightly guilty that I was crap company for the night with my attention on the game and little else.

At that point of time, the game was still a gameless draw. Extra time.

How could I leave at such crucial time.

I had bad vibes about their unutilised opportunities.

Then, came the penalty shoot-out, and the soccer klutz stayed back to hold my hands, cheer with me, and ease my tension.

I am thankful babe. It was such a big sacrifice on your part, knowing how you loathe and couldn’t comprehend the game.

Darn, we were the only Manchester United supporters there.

Of course, my eyes were brimming with tears when the moment of truth prevailed.

Disappointment, definitely, but I still love them all the same.

Keep the mean comments to yourself, soccer is sensitive issues, alright.

What I feel irritated was, once when Mr Ex boyfriend messaged me over MSN(just couple of weeks ago), and went on saying spiteful and childish comments, just simply because he detests Manchester United, and the fans.

His justification is that Manchester United fans are people who would sway to other winning clubs, unlike how he and his fellow Reds supporters would always stay faithful.

It’s kinda unfair, really. Most pals of mine are Liverpool supporters, and I do adore Liverpool, too, just that I am not into the politics of soccer. Harmless funny jibes are alright, but not when they get personal.

Okay, I am into good games, that’s all. Manchester United had their fair share of goods and bads, just like any other clubs. I remember the days when Liverpool played good soccer, and I pretty much enjoyed watching them too.

Also, my crush(10 years back), is a Liverpool supporter, too. Muahahahaha.

Anyway, onto the conversation with the ex.

In the past, how he would sulk, and sulk, and sulk when Liverpool loses.

And the shout-into-your-face jibes, which I wasn’t comfortable with.

So, when he messaged me the other day, and said something about ‘I am so sorry that you guys didn’t win anything. I am waiting to see how many of you guys would start to say they are actually Chelsea supporter since X years ago.. no integrity blarblarblar.

I could almost see the smirk on his face on the monitor,

Then we can have a good laugh into your face when we lift the Champions’ League… yadda yadda…

I found it incredibly funny.

I spoke it in a matter-of-factly way with a smile on my face,’Despite spiritually changed, and an obvious change to how you humble yourself for God, some things never changed. You’re still as spiteful when it comes to soccer.

Woops.

I still adore Liverpool fans. I have too many of them as my friends, crushes, ex-boyfriends, crushees, buddies.

Perhaps the constant harmless bickers are a turn-on for them. Muahaha.

All the best for Champion’s League!

Woops. Too much soccer talk.

Anyway, with teary-eyes, I took up Janice’s suggestion of ‘Since it’s already past midnight, we might as well stay out and dance the blues away.

Not too bad.

We jumped onto the cab, which took us to Clarke Quay, all for 5 bucks.

It would have been more, but we told uncle we had only 5 bucks with us, and he could just drop us anywhere near there once the meter hits 5, and we would walk over.

Apparently, being a very generous Manchester United fan, and seeing how affected I already was, he insisted on sending us right to the gate of Clarke Quay, though with midnight charge, the meter hit 5 bucks when he U-turned from where we were, so we were almost at the same spot when it hit $5.

Reached the club with a sulk, and feeling totally unglam cos I was in a casual top and jeans.

Pouted like a kid, and replies to all ‘How are you doing’ were the standard ‘No good.’

Io noh molto bene!

Was entering the club when I realised the red lipstick stain on Roberto’s cheek.

Woops. Wipe it away from his stubby face apologetically, and I silently thought no wonder I lose my lip colour so swiftly these days.

I pretended to ignore Jamail, cos he SMSed earlier to tell me he was rooting for Arse.. nal, but of cos he’s too lovely to ignore.

It wasn’t long before the music perked me up, and we partied the night away again.

I wonder if it was because I was in jeans, and I actually had a French guy coming up to me, and after the usual patronising lies compliments, asked if Janice and I are… *gasp* lesbians.

He insisted on buying us drinks, and we had our first Kamikaze of the night.

Then, a local Malay guy was smiling at me, and I thought he was a friend. Until he joked harmlessly, ‘Just a silly question, can you bring me home tonight?‘ like a little kitten.

Only if you can fit into my handbag, my dear.

A Spanish tried make some conversations, and started showering all the usual blatant lies compliments again.

Then conversation went on like this:
He: Where do you live?
Me: Where do YOU live then?
He: Jurong.
Me: Jurong where?
He: Jurong East.
Me: Jurong East where?
He: XX Condominium.
Me: !!!!!!

Yeah, darn. He stays in the same estate as I do, just couple of blocks away.

Then he suggested that we could go home together.

Yeah, very right. For once, I was quick-witted enough to say that I was heading home with my partner as I was bunking over at hers.

We moved away, and went onto the podium, where no guys would bother us.

While we were taking a break from dancing, we saw Roberto standing near the stairs leading to this private area, just above the dance floor.

He came over to say hi, and then gestured the bouncers to let us up to the private area.

We hesitated, cos it didn’t seem that much fun up there, but we did venture up to see what’s with the place anyway, since Douglas was standing there.

Alvin was the bartender behind the counter, and was pretty much lovely, just like most people from there.

We didn’t stay up at the exclusive private area, cos the people up there seemed pretty, er, weird.

God knows what are they normally up to, up there.

So we stuck to the bar counter, nearest to the stairs throughout the entire time.

Roberto and his friend came up, and bought us a shot each.

And for the first time, I broke away from my usual Kamikaze, and had one shot of Tequila.

With lotsa, lotsa salt. And many dashes of lime juice.

Vile, very vile. Drinking is definitely not my forte. As if you guys don’t know.

It wasn’t long before the lights came on, and I didn’t have the chance to dance it away.

I sat at the cashier counter below at the ground floor, and chatted to Jamail and guys, who were pretty much shocked by my utter scarlet-ness.

I am usually red from drinks, but I was BRIGHT RED, and was a pretty scary sight.

Absolute scarlet.

We started chatting to the auntie at the cashier, and playing with one of the guy’s walkie-talkie.

I took it, on it, and *ahem*: Baaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.. Baahhhhhh -hiccup-(no, just kidding) black sheep… Have you any wool?

Sang it with trembles in my tune.

Then, doraemon’s theme song serenaded the other people around the clubs holding to a walkie-talkie.

I was giggling into the walkie-talkie, and Janice and I did a duet of Bah Bah Black Sheep.

Everyone was laughing and it wasn’t long before someone radio-ed back ‘Shut up lah!’

*giggles*

It was more clowning around, and I maintained that alcohol is evil, however little there was.

Exited from the club and was taken aback by the *cough* majestic sight.

Out there, was a crowd of well-built men in all-black, some donning dark glasses.

Like some triads, or some sort.

The bouncers were getting ready to leave in a group. (So sweet eh! Everyone waited for everyone! *sniggers*)

The goofiness in me acted up, and I told them to walk behind me(since Jan was wearing all black too, and I was wearing my jacket with top and jeans).

I sashayed in front of the pack, and joked I am like some superstar walking out of the airport terminal.

I gave a cocky look, did my dramatic cat walk, and turned to Janice, ‘No interviews, please. No photographs, please.’

Diva!

2 of them flanked me, and making it more convincing.

I turned back and when I saw the entire group of them behind me, for a moment, I was afraid they might just bash me up for being too kooky.

Very grand exit, indeed.

Bade them goodbyes, and laughed ourselves silly over their spontaneity.

Walked to the 7-11 and got ourselves some nice food.

We always sabotaged our diet plans with food, after consoling ourselves how our partying ways should have cut down our fats by much.

Wanna gain weight? Just stick to us.

I got home by cab whereas Miss Posh walked to the MRT station and went public.

I got home looking like a lobster.

***

It was pretty quaint. I sat in front of the television, still reeling from the effects of the alcochol, and whatever was on the television, made me cry.

It wasn’t a sobfest nor intense weeping. Just a flow of tears for that minute. Slow, gentle, lingering tears.

My ducts generating a flow of tears cos it hadn’t been released much these days? Possibly.

Hurhurhur.

***

Woke up and watched a bit of television, before leaving for Raffles City to meet up with the 2 gorgeous ones. Raf and Janice.

Grabbed a quick bite at Burger King, and the 2 bombshells and I were plenty of legs and flesh for the evening.

It’s stressful to hang out with gorgeous pals, I tell you.

We headed down to, where else?

Sadly, on a holiday eve, the crowd was pathetic. PATHETIC.

We chatted at Attica, and met up with Jasmine.

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Being really bored, we whored ourselves for the camera, onoce again.

Janice and I in Attica before the place warmed up.

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The centre of all attention, Raf, in her sexy dress.

I love it!

When we were in the ladies, this Korean lady doctor came up to Raf, telling her that her companion, a white doctor from America, found her incredibly gorgeous.

We started thinking what if the doctor was a cute one, after I let slip Raf is engaged. Bah. I shouldn’t have said that. I already forgot how cute doctors could be these days, and shouldn’t write him off from the beginning. Muahaha.

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We then took a picture of the 3 of us, before we finally abandoned my chocolate martini(which tasted real lethal, I was burning red after just TWO SIPS. My first drink for the night, no less) after some persuasion and proceeded on to Attica Too after a round of Kamikazes.

We were so bored with the place that, we ended up taking a rest on the couch in the courtyard of Attica, and it was rather cool lying down on the couch, 3 ladies, trading scandals, bitching endlessly.

And then while stacking on top of each other, looking totally unglam, I don’t know why the 2 ladies started caressing my thighs, back, and stuffs.

Pretty hot, actually.

Thanks girls. *roll eyes*

I whined how deprived I am of affections, and they should stop rousing me that way.

Deprived, not desperate, my dears.

As Raf was stroking my thigh, with me lying next to her, she joked someone should take a picture of her holding my leg(my leg was hanging on her leg), and titled it ‘Rough Things Raf Ting’ and it might sell like hotcakes.

I concur.

We laughed, we bitched, we joked, we just rested, and I was almost falling asleep. Pretty comfortable that way.

I saw a familiar face, and I thought he might be a friend, whom I have never met in real life.

Somehow, it’s funny how someone would walk past you, and you could feel the vibes he/she was someone you know.

Like how I may walk past some people on the streets, and some people could still recognise me despite only reading my blog, yet never seen me in person.

Quaint oh quaint.

Then, the Korean female doctor came over, and pulled us over to introduce her friend to us.

And the bartenders behind the bar clapped when Raf proceeded over!

The doctor, a certain Mr Zachary, was a dead ringer, for a soccer player.

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Guess who?

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Guess again?

Hmmm. Answer at the end of the entry.

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Our new friend, Dr Jeannie! She’s such a lovely character whom is so easy to love.

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She was pretty tipsy and bored with her first trip to Attica, and we brought her and Zachary up to Attica Too instead.

They were really down to earth people, and hopefully will meet up with them more often since they are pretty new to the country.

Despite losing weight, I still wonder why I look so bulky in the pictures.

Grrr…….

It was then Attica Too time.

We danced, we boogied.

Met Lawrence there again, and he introduced his gorgeous pals to us, Karen and Carol, whom we dirty-danced with throughout.

5 girls. Body to body, slithing up and down each other. How hot do you want it to be?

Sadly, the 2 doctors left.

Then, this French guy came over, and offered to buy Raf and I shots. Recognising he is one of the bosses of the club, we kinda went along with it.

We were pretty speechless when we saw the tray of numerous shots brought over by the server, and he offered one to everyone, including his friends who were walking past.

I downed one, and he passed me another, and I downed 2 in a go. Pretty neat feat, considering my alcohol tolerance.

***
For the first time, I had such atrocious questions thrown to me:

-Are you into cocaine? *curse curse swear swear*
-Do you want to come to my Ritz suite, we could watch tv, have drinks together, no sex. (Yah, right)
-We could have a bubblebath together.
-Do you want to leave with me?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. SHOOOOOOO! GO AWAY!

I shall curse that you will have a rotten dick, soon.

That’s evil. Tsk tsk. I should learn to be kind.

***

Lawrence and his friends are party animals, and was really fun partying with them despite there was hardly any crowd for the night.

Saw David and he introduced some very nice friends of his to us. He said he had seen us downstairs but not up here much of the night. Very nice people who were looking out for us the entire night, and gave me a seat to sit down cos I was getting slightly wobbly.

I took few sips of the whiskey and thought I still love my vodkas. Derrick very nicely took the glass away from me and told me I shouldn’t feel obliged to drink if I didn’t like it.

He then tried to convince me his Chinese isn’t that bad.

Then, someone else joined us, and introduced himself as, er, well, David.

How many Davids are there in my blog these days, you ask.

Not bad. At least no repetitive surnames, and countries.

If I am not wrong, he is one of the shareholders of the club too, and then invited me over to join him at the VIP area, where the table was stacked with drinks, and endless drinks.

No prize for guessing what I requested for.

Orange juice. Whee.

He very nicely suggested we could quote his name the next time we are there. I smiled politely cos I thought that was pretty nice, not that we needed it.

We were chatting briefly and David(the tall and lanky one) came over to join us when David(yeay, I love confusing you guys) asked him over to supposedly, introduce to me.

David then told David, what he had told me earlier, so I wouldn’t have problems coming in in the future. David then responded to David that I already have no problems coming in these days. *sheepish*

I then got Janice to join us as well, and it wasn’t long that pretty much people were sitting down.

Despite not touching any alcohol, I got pretty creative and took the vodka bottle, and poured it neat into a glass, and passed to David. Oh, the tall one.

He scrunched his face when he took a sip from the neat liquid, and joked that much could knock out an elephant too. I would very much want to see how a tipsy elephant would behave.

Anyway he would only drink if I took a sip.

I took a minute sip.

Vile.

He poured into a mixture and downed part of it.

Quite very mean of me.

It was pretty nice chatting to the not-so-tall David, a Korean-American. Topics covered included family, people, and he has a gorgeous, gorgeous, 5 year-old boy.

He was really brilliant to Janice and I without being touchy with us, and we even tried to sabotage Douglas to drink, knowing how bad a drinker he is.

His lawyer friend Ben, a Londoner, was great company too.

I joked about how Londoners have the accent that tickle me. Like a fetish.

They were quite a bunch of funny people. David joked about firing his staffs and I joked about how Jan and I could take over the positions of David and Terry if he ever fires the managers.

Then it was about the rings on my finger, which I took out for them to look at.

My carat could fit tall David’s little finger, amazingly, when he put his hand forward, and I playfully slided it onto his finger.

The Tiffany, birthday present from MDIS classmates. The rock, Christmas present. Oh, and the -cough- 50 dollars watch, birthday present.

It was pretty ‘duh’ when he asked ‘What is that?’ when he saw the Tiff. Apparently, it was on my finger, and it gotta be a ring, no?

Someone then asked if taller David is a Chinese, and he asked in return where does he look like he’s from.

Janice and I then laughed and exclaimed ‘Japanese’.

The others were pretty much bewildered and I tapped on his chin slightly and tilted it to them, and asked ‘Look like Japanese porn star, no?’

Only Janice and I got the drift. David got it too since we last mentioned a friend thought he looks like a Japanese porn star.

The shorter David then mentioned ‘if you received carats for Christmas, I wonder what you receive for your birthday.’

Which cued the lanky one to grab my wrist, and said, ‘See, this is what people got for her birthday.’

*cough*

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Ben, Janice, and Ting.

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David, Janice, Ting.

Yes, I am absolutely scarlet.

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Janice, Ting, and the pole the ultra-skinny Douglas, who weighs as heavy as I do. Great guy there.

Look at his height! And be reminded I was on heels!

Yes, and I shaded away the fat, lardy, humongous arm in the picture. Tell me you didn’t notice.

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Hurhurhur. People, meet David, and David.

Just before going off, taller David got us to drink Tequila pop, which I had never tried.

And I drank half, passing the latter half to him. Quite nice, which I didn’t quite expected.

The group of us thought of hitting the dancefloor again, but when the moment we arrived right in the centre, the music stopped abruptly, and the lights came on. Right at 5am.

Well done. What great timing.

We speculated the deejay didn’t like the boss much.

Airkissed the bouncers goodbye, and then bade David goodbye with the usual kiss. Bumped into the service crew and Sean was among them, who came forward for a brief chat.

I spoke a string of incoherant words which I am pretty surprised he understood. Muahaha.

We left for supper at the usual River Valley Road, but the taller one didn’t join us cos he had to do the closing for the night, so it was just Ben, David, Janice and I.

Spicy Mee Goreng, just what I needed.

I am always hungry, darn. Someone should tell me to watch my diet.

David then dropped Ben off, then Janice, before heading to Jurong, which was really nice of him cos it was really a long ride all over Singapore and the day was slowly breaking.

Great conversations on bikes, cars, and sports. This guy knows his stuffs.

He turned out to be a nicer guy than most people made him out to be.

Hardly initimidating and gentlemanly, which is really good. Then again, some guys can be great pretenders, and we would never know, isn’t it?

I mean seriously, how many guys proved to be great disappointments eventually when their masks are ripped off, and true colours shown?

I think I am morphing into a cynical bitch.

It’s nice to make new friends, but I don’t like to make new friends when turnover rates are high.

I don’t know what I am blabbering about, either. But er, well, you get the picture.

Bleah. One day, I am gonna be bashed up by all the male readers for too much guy bashings here.

Got home around 6.45am, and by then, perfectly sober. I stayed up till past noon, occupied with MSN chats, photoediting, blog surfing, emailing of the pictures..

I am pretty much amazed by my stamina, really.

Now, I am craving for MacDonald’s breakfast. *pout*

Anyway, if you haven’t guessed it, Michael Owen lookalike, is Zachary.

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• Saturday, May 21st, 2005

I AM SORRY I LIED…

…when I used this bogus picture to cheat your feelings.

I shouldn’t have said I have the picture of Roberto, half nude.

I had wanted to blog about how I slept my Thursday away, and how my Friday was spent meeting up with Denise at the open area of Attica, having a quiet drink, catching up with the woes of life, and not getting the chocolate martini I so much wanted to try.

It was a great session, babe.

I had also wanted to blog about how I was having a nice and kooky chat with beloved Gracie and Filicia over cute Chinese names, and I had to pull myself away to leave home cos the topic was too hilarious to not be a part of.

Darn. Chatting to them is addictive. We were talking about something in regards to an informal writeup on Hong Kong guys and…. well, *ahem* nothing much, and I had to leave halfway too, on Thursday evening.

I had also wanted to blog about how I joined Patrick, the shortie Edmund, Grace and Teck for a night of KTV session after bidding Denise goodbye at Marine Parade Kbox.

I had also wanted to blog about how glad I am, finally able to croon ballads after being down with bad flu for a couple of weeks.

I had also wanted to blog about how the vertically challenged Edmund had greeted me with ‘Hey, you seemed to be a tad too well fed these days huh’.

*ROLL EYES*

I had also wanted to blog about how sorry I am to Cat, cos I had once promised her not to be pillioned by.. erm, Patrick.

But yet, since Patrick was gonna meet up at Tuas with the Ex and his bike group for a ride up to Cameron Highlands, he gave me a lift back to Jurong.

I had also wanted to blog about how I finally tried Bedok 85 Bak Chor Mee for the first time in my life, and finding it a tad too mediocre for my liking.

So, what caused the change of blogging plans?

Well, a friend was trying to recommend me a couple of modelling agencies, and suggested I should join(kidding me, right?! I don’t wanna make a fool outta myself, please).

So, I was terribly tormented by guilt for lying to you guys the last time round.

Hereby, is my MOST SINCERE APOLOGY.

Yes, click on the link, you idiot.

Not enough?

How about THIS TO REDEEM MYSELF?

Still blaming me for misleading you?

I REALLY AM SORRY.

I think I DID MORE THAN ENOUGH TO SHOW HOW SORRY I TRULY AM.

Man, I am hyperventilating.

But THIS, THIS, THIS, and THIS gotta be my absolute favourites.

If that’s not enough, for those who had swooned endlessly about him to me over MSN, HERE,