WOAH.

I am simply amused by how missiles of words are flying all round.

I had told myself to tie my hands to the chair not to refuke anything, cos there’s simply nothing else for me to say.

I got uncomfortable when I saw people talking to me about ‘this side, or that side.‘

So, this whole thing is getting territorial? *scratch heads*

Everyone told me to ignore, but more names are snowballed into the whole shite that’s going on. They don’t deserve that.

Why huh? Why did it have to escalate to such?

Yet, just 2 more things, and that’s it, from me.

One, I DID NOT use ‘Come on la, you all really believe….’ as my introduction to the question that sparked the entire saga.

The words were animated. ‘Eh, ask you all ah….. you all really believe…’

There is a difference, and could be a significant one.

I believe it was took out of context to spice up the sensational factor.

When 2 persons spoke up, yeah, I was shocked. More shock factor from why the strong over-reaction to a casual question.

It was only when I was home, when one of them MSN me to drive the point to me, then did I think to myself, ‘Eh, I still thought it was over and done with at that point of time, why still harping on it?’.

Then, a minor suspicion of people might have read too much into it crept in, but I brushed it off and didn’t think it would be.

Two. My good friend and I had not spoke much about the bloggers when we are out at Balaclava, and she was not sure of my take of the said person.

She told the said person when was asked why does she think I dislike her, good friend just gave an answer saying ‘I don’t know. Probably because….‘

There. They took it as a confirmation which they need for the case.

Why get everyone involve into it when we don’t want to.

Ask me. Directly. We all know how passing-the-message game always screw things up.

So. Truth is, I do have my reservations about her. I did.

But does reservations equate to dislike? I don’t think so.

I had reservations about Finicky Feline too, when she shot me a cold stare when we first met.

The reservations were there, for quite a while. I spent that night asking people I was close to, whether if she didn’t like me or something.

Until she added me on MSN, and I opened up to her.

I have reservations about Joel too. I still do. That’s because I still don’t know her, but I just might have a chance to, in the future.

Even Jordangoh, Tripleperiod. Are they nice, or are they just, being diplomatic?

I don’t know.

Now, dislike is still too strong a word. But being misquoted does irk me. Being having friends I love and adore pulled into the whole whirlpool makes me feel… affected.

Someone told me to show I am affected might just be what people want.

But truth is, I am, and I can’t hide it.

Truth is, the reservations grew more. I am apprehensive, feel the need to be cautious, and sceptical around a couple of people. The gap just grew bigger. Negativities increase, and it’s just harder to read the people cos everything is clouded.

Or is there a need to?

Is it a cruel episode of mind game? A misunderstanding which could be easily solved, and was fuelled by people with Godknowswhat intention?

I’m curious.

Why is it everyone trying to establish the question is of harmful nature and wrap in hostility?

Why is it that nobody is asking in return HOW did the malicious statement of ‘Ting was throwing herself all over Tetanus over supper, flirting incessantly‘ came about?

Who ignited that?

Over supper, there was only that few of us, or them.

Most present would be able to vouch it was almost ridiculous cos I did not do anything potentially that would remotely suggest that.

If you think I am directing it at the said person, no, I am not. I do not think it was even her. I am genuinely curious with how this came about.

Then what about Mambo night when everyone was all over everyone, in the name of fun, dirty dancing, and nobody said anything?

The intention behind the character assasination proves to be a tad sinister, isn’t it?

What is the agenda behind? I don’t know. Perhaps, it’s better that I don’t.

It was a rumour out of NOTHING.

Maybe it was a joke that was blown out of proportion.

Maybe not.

Why would someone want to do that?

Speculation wouldn’t quite explain that, cos it would be a suspicion, not a solid statement that suggest otherwise.

Teasing wouldn’t be substantial cos I would be at the receiving end, and not going behind my back.

Politics? Conceivably.

Any other reasons?

And, why me?

No, I am not trying to gain sympathy here. I don’t need any.

I don’t want and don’t need anyone to jump in front of me to shield me.

All I take comfort is, at the end of everything, people will silently think to themselves, ‘I know her.’ with that confidence in me.

Even if you’re not my friend.

That was only my 2nd meeting with them. I am awed.

Mind-boggling, isn’t it?

So why nobody is trying to get to the bottom of this when this is a clear indication that the whole thing is getting personal?

I don’t know.

Who are the hypocrites here?

I don’t like mind games.

Take me out.

Great. I shouldn’t blog about all these to feel naked and exposed right?

But yeah, you got me affected, if that’s what whoever you are want to know.

Whoever you are, whatever your intention is, may I know:

What for?

Die. Meeting 2 gorgeous people for dinner and I am still blogging at 6.24pm.