Giving some room to myself doesn’t necessarily mean that I am depriving myself the rights to write.

I just needed a break from communications, and make a hermit out of myself.

*Breathe in*

The air is fresher this way, baby.

To detach myself from reality, for a while.

And no, I didn’t stop writing, cos I know I won’t, unless I don’t feel like writing.

I just brought my writings elsewhere, for a more private and exclusive group of audiences, where there’s no judgments(I hope), no miscommunications(I hope), no scrutiny, no pressure, no comments left.

So wheeeee.. I am still blogging, here. Away from prying eyes.

Attention-seeking? Aww, let me teach you a thing or two about marketing, darling.

The last thing to do when you’re plugged, is to pull the plug to the lights, and let this space plunge into pitch-black darkness.

The right way is to whore more pictures, write more atrocious shit to rouse interest.

Not drive people away when there is more for you to bank on to generate publicity, ya know? *wink*

Then again, do you know me? Is there a need to know me? Think about it myself.

As for my blog getting a tad too boring with its sappy stuff for your liking, cos the world is already sad enough, and non-chirpy stuffs anger you…

Hmm, all I can say is, everyone has their own issues, and I don’t have to print mine for you to see.

If there’s elsewhere for you to escape from my reality, then don’t bore yourself here, really.

Did I rip your insecurities out of the closet?

Sadly, my blog here is not about entertainment. Not entirely.

I do try to make it less boring a read sometimes(come on, there will always be an element of entertaining needs), so that I wouldn’t bore myself to death if I read back my own writes in the future, but it doesn’t necessary mean you HAVE to read it.

I am sorry if it pisses the shit out of you with my drag-your-mood-down entries. I can’t keep up with your positive outlook in life, and I don’t intend to force myself to.

I know there are blogs out there which don’t suit my taste, and I simply skip them.

Simple as that.

I learnt one thing. No matter how peaceful I am with my explanations I have now(thus, seeing no point to respond to whoever or whatever that left messages for me during my vacation from blogosphere), if the chemistry is not there with whoever who is reading, however logical your stand is, it will never please them, nor change their views.

I believe in ‘affinity’ and ‘chemistry’.

Am I an attention-seeker? Hell yeah. But not exactly the kind of ‘attention’ you think it is.

I still am enjoying my peace, my solitude.

No feathers ruffled.

I am such. I retracted into a world of my own, cutting communications when I need a breather.

Not only on this blog, but other means, too.

Just like how I could be a hyper bunny(woo, not THAT way) one moment, and a complete recluse the next.

I would be pestering friends to entertain me one moment, and totally avoid them the next.

Hence, who knows, when I am ready, I might just get myself out of the shell I am hiding, and face the negative stuffs that get us down ever so often.

I feel pretty bad towards some concerned pals who had been trying to get me offline.

If you didn’t get me, I’m sorry. Just wasn’t having that want within me to talk, or be asked of questions I didn’t want to answer.

If I didn’t sound to pleasant or friendly over the phone if you somehow managed to get me, I’m sorry, too. Just felt a tad intruded, somehow.

If I am not replying to your messages, I’m sorry. I just don’t know how else to react.

Other than that, blogging goes on.

In my private world, that is.

*BEAMS*

Woo. This is fun. Like dancing my silly dance in my own room, without my neighbours peeking in.

*Hop Hop* *Jump jump* *Skip skip*