Archive for ◊ April, 2007 ◊

• Sunday, April 29th, 2007

3 hours of sleep over weekend is NOT funny.

Not forgetting tomorrow will be a physically demanding day with some compulsary outing at Pulau Ubin for some challenge, I think.

I almost forgot today I have an appointment.

And I was planning to sleep till evening… which I happily announced over SMS to CBB(who the hell wakes up at 8am on a Sunday??), which made him do his famous ‘closing’, until I was reminded today is Sunday, not Saturday.

Heading to Kitty’s birthday party now, before heading for my appointment(fingers crossed. Hopefully she doesn’t cancel on me again) thereafter.

It’s time to get productive.

I wanna thank Eileen for a life-saving phone call. Hurhurhur.

Today, I will see many babies. But not my own. :(

• Sunday, April 29th, 2007

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• Saturday, April 28th, 2007

Just had a nice, long shower, and tucked snugly under the duvet after a long day….

Long day of everything!

Woke up with SBB by my side after he popped by last night for an.. uh, impromptu visit(he had given me the daunting task of waking him up in time for work, and I think I did quite a brilliant job), reading my newest thriller, work/meeting at office, shopping with my voucher at Tangs(yay! A new, nice, comfy nightie to prance around the house in), coffee session with Mindy and Brian at Pacific Plaza, baby-talked to the little angel, 3 frames of mahjong with favourite girl friends(sorry Uncle Roy) from 8pm-5am at JD’s(Wenmei, it’s so near to your place. I am forever there nowadays), and flirting… with CBB.

And er… salted Earl Grey… *small voice* after I mistook salt for sugar.

Now, perhaps I should just wrap it up with a bit of CSI and my baby pillow and it would be oh-so perfect!

Love the rain!

Despite how I was shuddering in the cab when I stood in the rain for a brief while to hail for a cab home.

Uncle was a ’safe’ Ferrari driver and I got home promptly, looking at the rain out there, and felt a sense of chirpiness.

(Damn. I thought I was tired, and now after a hot shower, I am more awake than anything else! No wonder all the exclaimation marks are coming out abundantly.)

• Thursday, April 26th, 2007

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• Thursday, April 26th, 2007

Today has been the most productive day for me in a long while. And whilst I took a bit of time off the bank to do some outside running, I find it so much more refreshing to chuck the heels and tight pencil skirts away.

I started with an appointment at IKEA, stuffing meatballs, curry puff, and chicken wings down(which is like, the heaviest meal I have had in a long, long while!) whilst having a nice, relaxing lunch with Nick.

I took a cab down to town, where I had wanted to get my investment account done, but was put off by the atrocious waiting time.

I survived solely on adrenalin.

I looked for my scandalous CBB for a break, and my flip-flops, jeans, singlet and SBB’s favourite vest ensemble was a stark contrast to his delicious black tie, match with a crisp white shirt.

SBB is right. Le sigh. I sniff of hormones these days.

We caught up for a while, before I made my way to the office, dragging myself lazily out of the lift.

It was a while after I left the office to head back to my main office, when I received a message from him.

‘If the customers you meet today are all males, I’m sure you will close.’

Puzzled, I messaged back to ask why.

His reply made me giggle endlessly.

It was a good MF session. Must be hanging out too much with FF and the rest of the Sisterhood of the Lala Loser Clan.

And I half suspect his aggressiveness would not simply stop there.

***

Then I saw EBB.

And I brilliantly hid myself from sight.

***

I have a pack 2 weeks ahead, and this Saturday’s double appointments means I might not see baby this weekend, since Monday would be a compulsary company event day.

And because of that(and a 100 bucks fine for absence), I had to postpone my meeting with an overseas client to Tuesday, a holiday, cos he would be flying off on Tuesday evening.

Le sigh.

So, no Minibean. :(

***

I went for a blood test and medical checkup so that my policy would be put throught promptly, though it was damn silly that the stereotyping of single mums mean that I have to go through HIV testing.

Ah well.

***

I was supposed to meet a client at 7plus, but she had MIA-ed on me and is uncontactable. Just hope she is okay.

***

I read some parts of a new book today.

I caught up with latest episodes of Heroes and CSI: Miami last night.

I caught up with some CSI: New York today.

I just spoke to my little cutie, who is having a cough again, runny stools, and flushed cheeks, possibly because of her new teeth growing. Grouchy and painful.

I set myself a challenge against one of the top guys in the company.

Spoke to SBB.

Close case.

Opened some cases.

All in all, quite a productive day.

Now.. I think all I need to do now, is to feed that growling tummy that needs a little attention.

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• Wednesday, April 25th, 2007

Minibean loves MotoGP.

She was flipping and turning, having a hard time staying still, until I told her Mummy is going to watch MotoGP.

She still refused to keep still until the television came on and she focused her attention on the MotoGP action.

I wonder who she would support.

Heh, and that’s Minibean’s first episode of MotoGP action, on Sunday 22nd April 2007.

***

Many, many firsts for Minibean in the past week.

Dad excitedly bought back Gerber semi-solid food for Minibean last week, at 11ish at night, and then insistently asked Mum to feed Minibean some before her last feed.

So, on 20th April, Minibean had her first semi-solid, which she didn’t quite like.

Maybe because the Apple one was a tad too sour.

But she happily gorged down the Potato one with much glee the next morning, though she was too used to bottles and nipples, and thus, was trying to use her tongue to push, like as if she was suckling.

Dad was happily telling me how he gotten those for her from Singapore, cos he doesn’t trust those in Malaysia(???) when I had told him to get from Malaysia since it might be cheaper.

When I was back on Saturday night, she was happily playing the rolling game(Potato! It reminds me of the penguin joke you know? Cos my mum kept asked her to ‘gun’(roll)).

Ever since her first flip on 2nd of April, she has learnt to roll, by flipping to the left, and flips again.. and again… and again.

And she only knows how to roll in one direction, which she always self-amuses herself by rolling at a high speed, letting my mum chasing after her.

Sometimes, she would roll out of the mattress, onto the floor, and lifts up her head to give a cheeky grin to the laughing adults.


The other day, Mum was telling me how she had folded up the mattress into 2 folds, and had placed Minibean on it.

She had rolled out of it and fell onto the floor(since 2 folds is pretty high for the baby, she reckons), and she was just happily lying there face up and did not even cry or anything as Mum looked for bruises.

I laughed, and I supposed if it was me, I would be just be really amused, rather than worried.

Therefore, when she was back with me, I was careful to build ‘fortresses’ around my bed, so that she would roll into the pillows or blankets, and not onto the floor.

***

I brought her to my room and locked the door for some private time, away from my over-animated Mum.

I seriously don’t like it when she speaks bad about the adults in front of my child.

Especially when sometimes she has gripes about Dad, and she would complain to Minibean and call Minibean to call him names.

So, I very much am afraid what she would teach Minibean about me.

I tell you, I would get really, really mean if I need to.

But other than that… it is time with Minibean!

She is growing so fast… and I wonder how her hair would finally take on some shape haha.

And her attitude is developing fast. Tsk tsk..

Love her alert eyes!

And with more teeth to come, her drooling habit is getting from bad to worse….

Today Mum called to say that the discomfort made her keep licking her gums, which hurt her tongue cos her already grown tooth cuts into her tongue.

And she is coughing a bit again… sigh.

I fed her her last feed, and she was already holding her own bottle.

My smart little one.

When I took over the bottle from her, she crossed her little hands…


***

I stayed overnight in Malaysia, so that the next morning Dad would drive us out.

It was a late message in the midst of my sleep that kept me awake and thinking for the entire night.

I was pretty upset.

Thus, I stayed up right after the phone call at around 6am, and even snuck into my parents’ room just to hug Minibean when she was still asleep.

I laid down next to her and just looked at her, to get some peace within.

***

It was 9am when we finally left JB.

Minibean had her bath, and her feed, before Dad drove us out.

In the early, glaring morning sun.

Then she fell asleep in my arms, like she always does when I hug her this way, and on car journeys.

We headed home for Mummy to change, before I brought Minibean out.

I was so frustrated whilst waiting for a cab that an Indian lady and her daughter actually cut my queue.

Hello? I was carrying so much things and carrying a baby in the hot sun. I don’t expect you to let me board a cab first if I were to be there after you, but I was there waiting for a cab for the longest time.

Are you blind? Is your daughter blind as well????

If you guys are, I pity you. Argh.

***

22/4/2007 - Minibean’s first church service!

I was slightly late, but it was the first time she saw everyone in church, including all other babies who were slightly older than her by a month or so.

But she was so smiley and alert that everyone adored her!


When she held her own bottle, everyone was amused cos some at 9 months-old were still clueless about holding bottles.

And of course, her dark turf of hair was the envy of the other mothers.

I wish to be able to bring her to church more often, so she would grow together with the other kids.

I then brought her to Sim Lim to have lunch with Uncle Roy, and she slept soundly in the sun, before I walked to Bugis in the crowd, and took a train to Cineleisure to meet up with Auntie FF and her siblings.

It was drizzling when I reached, and if I had reached any later, it would be pouring.

Minibean and I at Rocky Master in the pouring rain.

It was starting to get a little chilly so I wrapped her up in her blankie.

I went shopping with the little one, who received lotsa ‘Ooohs and ahhhs’ with her cute little charming personality.

And I found her destiny when I brought her to Kinokuniya.


I was jokingly saying that I would make her read it as her first book and she reached out to hold it happily.

I put it back onto the shelf, and an uncle who was standing nearby smiled and nodded at me, as if telling me that I am a brilliant mother to want my daughter to read the Art of War.

But what a perfect irony, with her holding on to this scarlet book, and her bib says ‘Love’.

Love and war.

Cool.

***

I went to pack some food before I took her to board the cab home, and was in time to watch the MotoGP action on TV.

I needed to shower, so I put her in her crib to feed herself.

And by the time I came out, she was almost finishing everything.

Smart girl!

We both fell asleep at late 10ish, before SBB called, and then I went back to sleep.

I woke up around 8ish when I found her feet kicking me in the face.

She had propelled herself up with her furious kicks in her sleep and was found headbutting the wall.

My silly girl will always wake up with a smile when you see her opening her eyes and say ‘Good morning Charissa!’

It was 9am in the morning. And then, she would realise she is hungry, and started scrunching her face up, ready to wail for milk.

Luckily, I had prepared her milk in advance before she woke, so it had time to cool.

And the little one grew lazy, and tried to balance her milk bottle by… one hand only!

She was successfully balancing it until it fell out of her tiny hand after a while, which made her scream for milk again.

Silly baby! Muacks.

Her Poppa called at half past 9 and wanted to talk to her.

I don’t know what was their little secret about, but she excitedly grabbed the telephone from me and wanted to hold it on her own whilst grinning to herself.

So I grabbed the camera to capture her silly grin down.

I showered her and played for a little while.

It was 11am when she started to get cranky(the usual sign that she is sleepy) and I pat her to sleep. She fell asleep on my chest.

It was one when I woke up, with her sleeping on her sides, facing me.


Awww……

I started to prepare the things to head out, as she still slept on soundly.

It was 1.30pm when she finally woke up.

When she finally woke up, she was flipping around and as usual, gave me her cheeky grin.

I grabbed my camera, and I took a picture of her, which is currently my favourite picture of her.


It was taken vertically, from where I was sitting, and she was flipping around, looking up at me.

This little charmer worms her way to my heart. :)

And on this particular Monday, Minibean went to work with me.

I held up the traffic when the very nice cab uncle stopped his cab and alighted to help with the pram.

I think the bus driver behind was very understanding not to press us.

On our way to the office, before it started storming really badly.

She then started yawning as she leaned on my chest…

Eyes half-closed…

Before she finally dozing off.

She fell asleep and when I finally got to work, she woke up to find many people cooing over her.

I had a long meeting with my manager, as his PA helped me to take care of her.

The brilliant little one was so obedient that everyone adored her.

My manager’s PA even brought her to Starbucks, and I met up with Filicia for a while, cos I had Minibean with me and I had always wanted her to meet Minibean.

I even bumped into PoisonLady(Apple) who was with her friend there! So long never see her and she is looking really good.

I went up to continue my meeting, and Minibean fell asleep in Justine’s arms at around 5pm.

It was 5.30pm when Dad finally picked us up and the little one was so sleepy that she continued sleeping in my arms.

It was 8pm when we finally reached back Malaysia, after Dad came back home to pick up some stuff, packed some dinner, and blarblarblar.

My little one, with me on our journey back to JB in the rain.

It was 8.45pm when I finally made my way out, bidding her goodbye, after I fed her semi-solids.

Babies are simply, amazing.

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• Wednesday, April 25th, 2007

And a storm within.

I am just glad it is Wednesday again, my day off.

I had wanted to stay out yesterday since I am not working today, but it ended up with me being really bored at home, and succumbing to a nap at 8pm.

That’s what happens when you gets home early from work because a driving colleague had her interview in Jurong, and was able to give me a lift.

I dropped by my gynaecology clinic to say hi to some of the nurses before I boarded a bus and made it home by 6pm.

Spoke to SBB for a while before I headed for my nap.

So. My nap was a brief one before Dad bought dinner home around 9.

But it wasn’t too long before I fell asleep shortly after he left at 10 ish.

I fell asleep again at 10.30pm.

And I shall not mention it was 3.45pm when I was finally fully awake.

Almost 18 hours of sleep.

A dream-filled one.

But somehow I know something is brewing inside me, causing lotsa uncertainty, stress and discomfort.

Is it…?

I just wanted to sleep it away before it eats me up from internally.

So I was awake from time to time to check the time, check the phone. And I just fell back to sleep immediately without giving myself much time to think.

And then…. there was this short phone call that came in in the midst of my sleep from SBB.

Back to sleep.

And I wish the storm was here when I was asleep, not when I am awake.

As I look out of the window now, it almost feels surreal.

***

Lunchtime on Tuesday was spent with my 2 colleagues over at Sim Lim, before we headed to Bugis for lunch.

I need to get out of such a leisurely pace and really push myself for Project 300000 man.

***

I should never allow myself to feel this way.

But perhaps, I should have never allowed myself to be in such state right from the beginning.

***

I wish you were somehow here last night.

But some things like this… never do sound right.

• Tuesday, April 24th, 2007

I went back to work yesterday afternoon at the main office.

With Minibean.

I had a pretty good talk with my manager and I thought I left the office with pretty much positive feelings.

Only that everything has to be spoilt this morning when a call came in from him to chide me for being too honest and not politically correct enough.

In the wake of the event that 2 advisers had left the company to join the bank(though not from my agency), much feathers were ruffled.

He came to ask me if I had told anyone that I had taken serious consideration about joining the bank.

Yes, I did. In many conversations when people asked me who are the advisers who left, and why would they want to leave, I was asked about my opinions.

I would always maintain that both sides have their perks and it depends on what a person is looking at.

Career advancements or money. And I said career advancement would be banking related, and the money is definitely here in insurance side.

So when people asked me, I would just say the bank has a rather attractive offer, and the benefits and stability is there.

So basically, I am just stating the truth.

Anyway, he told me he is really pissed and angry that I could ever tell anyone else that, simply because it is like ‘messing their minds up’ about what they feel about the trade.

Suddenly, I envisioned a cage of hamsters. One hamster told another hamster how big the world out there is, and then the chief hamster is not happy cos it is temptation at its best.

But it is a big bad world out there, and a discerning hamster would have not been tempted to leave cos there is no security out there, no?

Anyway, he was angry that, in his words, I didn’t think before I speak.

Can you please think carefully before you speak next time?

Uhm, fine.

Maybe, honesty gets me nowhere.

Bleargh.

Is sales trade really all about hypocrisy?

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• Tuesday, April 24th, 2007

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• Tuesday, April 24th, 2007

My mind was so boggled by work that I couldn’t sleep last night.

I had brought Minibean to work yesterday.

Hurhurhur. Of course, not at the bank, but back in my main office. I had my manager’s PA looking after her, as I had a long talk with my boss about my next move.

I told him I would stay.

There is something else hanging at the back of my mind, and I know I have to clear it.

I have to start my Project 300,000.

So far, I am only 12200 there. Still short of many many. I have to get there before the end of next month.

It’s a long, complicated story about advanced payment and such, so the way to go around it is to churn that amount of production.

Scarier than credit card.

But I know I will get there. So just keeping fingers crossed.

Have spent 2 and half days with Minibean, and it was good therapy. I needed that.

She is really outsmarting everyone in the family. And a natural charmer with people.

Have played 2 rounds of mahjong last night with Roy, JD, and FF. I needed that.

I brought Minibean in from work, back to Jurong in the jam for Dad to pick up something, then to JB(2 and half hour before I got off the car. Bleagh), then Dad dropped me off at the custom, took a bus, change bus, MRT station, to Novena, then walk.

I still can’t figure how mahjong can make people feel emotional. Muahahaha. And I don’t that kind emotional because of bad tiles, you know? But the kind of emotional that you feel slightly forlorn despite having zi-mo 5 tais.

Not that I had.

Wait a minute.. hmm…

Finally a breather after the last week, and now it’s back to Project 300000.

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