Despite being caught in the rain and being really tired, I didn’t get much nap yesterday afternoon, before I started to get things going a bit.

Chores. Contacts.

I still didn’t manage to break my pattern yet.

I tried hard to divert my attention, and it was just one of those days when I knew the day was going to proceed on with too slow a pace, too heavy a heart, and too depressed a person. It just wasn’t going to be easy, and it wasn’t easy.

I was contemplating of getting laid to counter those devastation that had brewed within for the recent days.

Actually, I wasn’t quite looking to be laid. Then again, I just thought some sort of intimacy of me burrowing into someone’s chest and soft nibbles of lips would bring me further away from my real world.

Then again, I am sure my candidates would make sure the otherwise will happen, and I know I am bound to regret should anything happen. So, I hugged my baby pillow which gave me lotsa comfort, and drifted off to sleep.

Then it became funny.

I got a booty call today.

From CBB no less.

FF has faith in me that I will get laid by next week. Gasp!

Anyway, we had a strange SMS exchange that happened when we were both semi-conscious. His message came in at 4am which he had woken up abruptly, which strangely, I woke up 10 minutes later and saw his message. It lasted 45 minutes, before his reply came in at 7 plus in the morning, which I supposed he was getting ready to head to the bank.

Another quick exchange, before I drifted off to sleep again.

I am surprised I could send decent messages when I am semi-conscious.

Oh, he wanted to borrow a shower room in the midst of his very busy schedule today., cos he has a DND to head to. Cough.

In which…

FF says:
ARE YOU STUPID
FF says:
SAY YES
FF says:
YES YOU CAN BORROW FUCKING SHOWER FROM ME
FF says:
kekekeke
FF says:
sorry your whorish friend is talking here
Tingism. says:
i wouldnt mind seeing him all dressed up though
FF says:
FLIRT BACK
Tingism. says:
i did.
FF says:
SO PROUD OF YOU
Tingism. says:
too bad lah i told him i aint ard
FF says:
WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Tingism. says:
OH OH!
Tingism. says:
he jus asked for a sexy picture from me

Okay. Waking up with a bad breath, sans makeup, with glasses isn’t exactly sexy.

So no.

And now *cough* he promises a sexy one tonight in exchange.

Should I.. should I not..?

Hmm……………..

Tsk. I almost forgot how to play the game. Maybe I am half reluctant cos besides the slight attraction to these 2 guys(say, the other is TBB), and that they both look similar, both are smart and funny… tall and skinny(finally I meet tall guys!)…

The strange thing is, whenever they get suggestive, I don’t get chills down my spine, nor do I get butterflies in my stomach, nor do I get aroused just thinking of it. No urges. More like a challenge to a flirty banter. Unlike.. oh well.

I simply laugh. I simply get amused. I simply think of the right replies to give. Oh and I simply conceded that these players are so at the top of their games.

And then when I get bored, or when reality strikes me again…

.. I simply walk away.