… it still is surreal.

Yesterday, I saw a poignant series of pictures on Tetanus’ site. Life before death made me slow my lightning pace in the office, and took my breath away.

Most of the pictures are taken weeks before they passed on, or some, even days.

So many questions ran through my head. How did they feel? Do they know when? Isn’t it so scary when you are never gonna wake up next? With that much pain they suffer, is it… a release?

It was almost 4 weeks ago, when I visited the fighter.

It was the first and only time I saw him fight.

I saw his life, through people around him, a tightening grasp of the hand, a pat on the back, the resigned smiles, the hidden sadness, the matter-of-fact tones, the constant jokes and banterings that kept coming in……

I saw his life, before…

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I wish I was there when you needed someone.

Be well, be strong.