… I am out of my mind.

Like seriously.

When I blog previously, I wrote it off as momentary loss of sanity. But as Wednesday crept by, and the events that followed, I certified myself insane.

Well, most people had responded with “Are you mad?” and I couldn’t quite deny.

Woohoo.

I am excited. I cannot not be.

And I don’t need people to tell me how nuts I can be, so when it happens, you will hear about it.

Let’s just say besides keeping Minibean, this could be the most beyond-imagination thing I have done in my life.

But yeah, when one day I look back into my life, I will look back to this, and firmly say THAT, is one of the highlights of my life.

No, I haven’t gone bald.

Anyway, been busy to update.

Well. There is a sub-episode from the post about faded fate. Brief, but, I think still deserves a mention.

At the end of it, I just realised explanations are just… unnecessary. Beyond a point, even though there might be misunderstandings, even though there might be too much assumptions, but even when things are cleared, things will never be the same again.

What causes the feelings to go away, putting the record straight doesn’t restore feelings back.

Because, what had happened didn’t brew bad feelings, but much worse, killed off the good. And then, we lack the patience and courage to try to rebuild that again.

Maybe the same could be said for friendships, thus, sometimes, we don’t bother to explain anymore, cos words, sometimes can’t revive certain things.

It just simply establishes nothing and justifies nothing.

You simply ask yourself, what’s the point?

Cos when the heart is not open nor willing, it refuses to believe.