Out of My Mind

I am not feeling all too great today.

Many things running through my mind.

I so shouldn’t have splurged on the Rock Band. I so shouldn’t have spent on things I don’t really need. I so shouldn’t have eating expensive meals that make me fat. I shouldn’t have taken a cab yesterday.

I so shouldn’t.

I am still stuck here, going no where.

I wish I can get out of the predicament.

I don’t know how to.

***

I sang. I rocked. I played till my hands were numbed from the aircon wind.

I read.

I played Dai dee.

I was just pretty restless and feeling at ease and peaceful in my personal space.

Then Dad’s call came. There was just something he was saying and wasn’t saying.

And this probably sets the mood for me, for a long time to come.