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They didn’t make it
I have tears in my eyes as I start this post.
I had wanted to blog about this last night at 2.30am, but my eyes were blood-shot and dry(I hadn’t worn my contact lens for weeks due to dry eyes, and finally wore them yesterday and they got really bad), I could hardly keep them open.
Recently I kept having strange dreams. It was also some strange feelings I have been feeling, and I kept screaming for people to slow down these days, especially when I am on bikes. I get unsettled on the road, greatly.
After running to Orchard(Shiseido’s office), Comex(May had to park at Raffles City and we made the dreaded journey there), and back to office(my manager had wanted to speak to me again after I declined their counter-offer), I met up with Roumin before her boyfriend fetched us to Vivocity for dinner.
We headed to karaoke thereafter.
They offered me a lift home, and slowed as they approached somewhere near my place. I opened my painful and itchy eyes, I saw a huge SCDF engine occupying half of the road, with its red lights screaming for attention.
I was roused awake, and sat up straight wondering what was wrong. It was around 2am.
When we went past the engine, we didn’t see any wreckage, nor any vehicle, and I could see some cars and bikes stopping by the side of the road, and passers-by stopping to watch.
What I saw was this team of more than 10 SCDF men, in their uniform, crowding in a circle as a team, and I got really curious.
An ambulance was parked right before them.
As we went past them, it was from a slight gap did I notice the white mess wedged in the midst of these men.
And then it made sense to me what could be happening.
The car had hit the divider, into those green metal fencing(to stop jay walkers), and the tree. The impact was so great that the front of the car was compressed, and that’s why we didn’t see the wreckage in the beginning.
The car was facing against the flow of the traffic, which shows that it had spinned a little before crashing into the tree.
My heart chilled at the sight. It was… I don’t know.
The uniformed men seemed like they were trying to coordinate… and I commented that it seemed to me they were trying to cut someone free, and probably it was the driver.
I was hoping he was just pined beneath the metal and alive. The ambulance was on standby.. right?
As much as I was tired, I didn’t manage to sleep at all. I couldn’t shake the blur image(my vision was blurry by then due to the dryness) off my mind.
I tossed and turned until I finally slept around 4ish.
When talking to a friend about it today, I don’t know why I just blurted, “I hope he and the passenger will be alright, but… “.
I didn’t know before hand there was a passenger.. and it just came out like this.
It was a heartbreaking sight. It truly was.
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The 25 years-old couple who planned to get marry on 09-09-09 died in the accident. The lady was flung out of the vehicle, whilst the driver’s body was freed from the wreckage only after the SCDF used the compressor to cut him free.
By the time I went past, the lady was already removed from the scene.
The article spoke of the parents’ pain. But I can’t even begin to imagine how painful it must be for them.
Condolences, for I can’t write more.
I.. don’t know why I am so greatly affected.
So it wasn’t
So it wasn’t quite as explosive as it was supposed to be.
Anyway, I haven’t been blogging because things have been a bit complicated these days. My present company went to great lengths in an attempt to get me to stay, and truth to be told, the carrots are absolutely tempting.
And I was surprised, definitely. Especially that of a female manager whom… isn’t that close to me, and yet had initially planned for an internal transfer so I would be under her. She expressed her shock at the knowledge of my departure, and as we seldom converse, her replies that came was somewhat unexpected….
Then again, after the happenings, hoo-has and the bidding games, I was confused. I was uncertain. I mean, I did waver. It is like being attached to someone and the familiarity makes it hard to move on.
And then, it wasn’t easy. I want things to be cordial and the split to be amicable. I don’t want my memories of this place tainted. I am a romantic like this.
Sometimes between what is right, what is wrong, what is politically correct, and what I should be doing to protect my self interests .. all these discernment, elude me.
In the process, I might have made people unhappy. I should really curb my brutal honesty. Because at the end of it, I feel like I have done a great disservice to some people for telling the absolute truth.
Confidentiality is there for a reason. Taboos are not meant to be tested. They have left too much awkwardness in between that stifled.
I guess at a point like this, there is little thing for me to do, but to leave, and start everything afresh.
The girl awaiting an answer from the management this afternoon should be giving me a big, fat treat. Cos my answer, shall be to her advantage.
You aren’t serious…
WHO SIAL!!!
WHO??????
WHO COULD IT BE?!?!?!
IS HE SERIOUS?!
WOOOHOOOO TOP MODEL/BLOGGER IN SINGAPORE LEH!
AND IT IS A SEX TAPE!
WU YA BOH?
My curiosity is seriously killing me
Medic! I need a medic!
It was breakfast as usual for us this morning, when we took a lift right to the basement.
Just as the lift door parted, the man outside who was munching his breakfast and carrying a cup of hot coffee seemed all ready to step in as we were ready to exit out.
The 3 of us had yet to walk out when he suddenly fell flat on his back.
His eyes were flickering and he spasmed for a few seconds before we all reacted(Stephanie was already walking out before she noticed someone fell, and Daniel and I were just taken aback by what we saw).
I was wondering if he was having fits(then that means have to react by digging the food out, and let him bite on someone’s sweater), or an heart attack(a hard pat to the chest, or try to make him cough). And then I was afraid he was going to choke on his bun.
When he fell, his cup of coffee(thankfully quite tightly capped) spilled to his face, and his long-sleeved shirt. He could have scalded himself.
We quickly ran towards him(after a couple of seconds of shock), and held on to him, and it was a couple of seconds that he suddenly replied us that he was okay, and that he had passed out.
I think we all heaved a sigh of relief cos… at least he looked okay and his life wasn’t in danger.
He looked utterly embarrassed, and we were pretty much worried sick.
We urged him to head to the clinic nearby and we would help him there, yet he refused.
He just got his things up, and walked into the next lift, with others who came by only after he had sat up, wondering if he had fell or something.
We deduced that HP is too stressful an environment to work in, laughs.
But whoever you are, I hope you are okay, and that it was just a simple case of low sugar level and nothing serious.
We felt like hero and heroines this morning! *Beams*
And now, I should be doing the thing I have meant to do. With a heavy heart, of course.
Rain, gloom, and the works
I am feeling incredibly heavy-hearted today.
The verdict is out.
I had a closed-door weekend, where I spent most of my time away from the rain, and stayed indoor. Alas, when I overslept on Sunday(woke up at 6 plus in the evening), the parents had left for JB with baby.
The house is incredibly lonely. And I felt a great sense of loss, and was easily rattled by the quietness of it all.
Can you imagine, I was actually feeling afraid like a child this morning, when it was bright and sunny, just because of the renovation work upstairs?
I have been seeing Minibean for the longest time in these couple of weeks, and she is learning and growing so fast that, it will be hard missing all these little milestones. She is now effectively bilingual, I think. She can count 1 - 5, even though she cannot string a sentence.
She can dance, she can boogie, and she is hot.
I think I didn’t say this nor jot this down earlier, but one and half weeks ago, on a Thursday, I came home to realise her looks had changed.
Her right eye’s double eyelid was peeking out, and her eyes looked BIG.
Now, we are all waiting for her left one to start forming and she would be really, really, awesomely, HOT!
So, here I jot it down ah, don’t malign her for going under the knife for double eye lids next time ah.
The double eyelid was there for 1 and half weeks now, so it isn’t a case of swollen eye, so yay!
***
I was not the only one who was down with a bad tummy on Saturday. Mum and dad got it too, and I was just glad I didn’t feed Minibean off my bowl.
Apparently Mum had reused some oil which was leftover from a week ago, which she didn’t know it was from way back then, cos the maid didn’t throw away.
BAH!
So I had the most veggie(which was cooked with the oil).
Then it was raining on Saturday night and with baby with me, I didn’t bring her out to join the girlies at Esplanade.
Sunday was sleeping. Sleeping. Sleeping.
***
Something was decided today.
My half a year with my present company has been nothing but great. I love the people here.
When I decided to give new opportunities a shot, I definitely didn’t expect it to come so soon. I certainly didn’t plan to leave my job so early into it.
I don’t want to be a career whore, you see.
But then again, when opportunities knocked, and when an interview like mine went this bad(we are looking for someone precise, careful and very meticulous, what’s your flaws? “Erm, I am a bit ditzy, a little clueless, quite careless, and can be quite blur”), yet you still get a pay package that’s pretty fabulous(okay, not the best, but I think with my experience and academic background, I should be kissing the ground), and exciting learning experiences ahead, it is hard not to be swayed.
I was swayed.
Yet when I decided to confess I might be moving on, I cried. Not many people would have this kind of confession, but I felt as if I was cheating and couldn’t suppress it anymore.
I went ahead to tell the management I was considering an offer, and told them how I really didn’t bother to find any other jobs since I joined here, but it was just a temptation of fate(DUH I know I know, I say the darnest things, ever!).
I walked out crying.
LIKE SERIOUSLY! WHERE GOT PEOPLE SO PUSSY LIKE ME ONE?!
So anyway, I know the next job will not be this easy for me, and the challenges for someone like me are definitely there.
So, who knows? I should be getting ready for one hellava bumpy ride.
And yes, while considering all these last night, I failed to sleep.
But now, I know, as much as I hate to leave things behind, these 2 years of happenings, should have made me realise that, sometimes, we need to be pushed, to move on.
If 2 years ago, you ask me where I will be, I would not have guessed. I would not have believed where I am now.
Of course, I don’t know where I will be in another half a year’s time, but I know I won’t be too far from where I planned out to be.
Ping Pong Girls
I woke up with sharp pain in the tummy. Food poisoning.
After having an excruciating session in the restroom with such an amazingly great weather out there to catch up on lost sleep, I was unable to nap.
Anyway was surfing and then I realised the table tennis girls/aunties can look so different!!
Remember them? China’s “poker face” Zhang Yining who hardly smiles, and Wang Nan, the “auntie” of the group?
Who knows Wang Nan can look so “innocent” with make up?!
And of course…
Singapore’s Wang Yue Gu, whose age practically made everyone’s jaw drop. She’s less than a year older than me.
(!!!!)
Last but not least…
The often smile-less Zhang Yi Ning..
Oh my God, she can smile she can smile! And quite hiao!
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