I have so much on my mind it isn’t funny. Strange thing is I seem to block them off so well when I try to dwell into what I am really thinking, I found….

…. Nothing!

See, that’s what happen when you have newfound responsibility that could possibly mean so much to you, but little to anyone else.

And that’s perhaps why I have not even started on the detailed planning slides I am supposed to come up with.

It was an interesting evening yesterday when I left work with a colleague who was heading out to NUS, and I was given a chance to experience what I missed.. and perhaps, part of what I am missing(not really, but still.. related, you see).

The funny thing happened when we were walking towards his car in Raffles City’s carpark, when suddenly he turned and didn’t see me.

A gasp from a nearby lady was heard.

I was on all fours before I did my usual sweepthehairbackIamfinewhat’snew smile and got back on my feet.

I could hardly feel my ankle and it was a bad twist. Thankfully my ankle is so flexible that even I twisted it and tripped on it with my full body weight collapsing onto it, it took just a few more steps to get it in place again.

Must be a mockery that now I realise what had been missing from my playlist: Dishwalla Angels or Devils and immediately played it. The sentence I heard the moment I plugged in my headphones - “this is the last time I will fall…. into a place that fails us all inside”

Fine. I ain’t the most graceful being around. Maybe I just need to convert to be a vampire or something.

Anyway.

I decided to sit in, and I ended up joining all the youngish looking students(haha, fortunately I was in jeans and my Miss Naughty tee) in the evening lecture.

I was reminded that I kinda enjoyed student life for a different reason, and I didn’t miss the 25-page assignment they were given.

The hour-long session evangelist(haha) session ended and my colleague dropped me off at Dover MRT, before I took the train home.. feeling… that urge to reach out to my dream again.

Oh well.

Some dreams are not meant to be realised, and I kinda remember the fact that I do have other things I wanna do by this year as well.

Bummer.

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I spent my entire evening sitting in front of the television, without changing out of my gear, thinking.

I watched the bunch of youngsters singing, and I realised I don’t feel any different from them. I am just deluded I think.

When I finally got my arse out of the couch to the shower, my delusion ended when an old, haggard auntie stared me back in the face.

I stayed in bed and sulked. Tried to read and couldn’t.

So….. I downloaded Sudoku on Xbox LIVE Arcade Marketplace onto my Xbox 360 and I spent hours on it.

I am going to find other things that don’t test my coordination skills which I suck so much in to download to unlock the achievements BY MYSELF instead on depending people like Norman who drop by my place to play Xbox and then ended up doubling(okay, fine, maybe more) my achievment points without me knowing. Hahaha.

I am obsessed now; mindless things that get me lost in my thoughts.

Awesome.

I want to go home to play! But today got media event(got beer that I cannot drink) so……. gotta wait.

Hmm, so which game should I next download? Or maybe I should just karaoke on Lips tonight then.