The past week had been a clash of timing for me to really get into the swing of giving this space of mine a little CPR.

Even though I had plans to do so today, a terrible bout of cramp and migraine had imprisoned me in my bed, curled up like a shrimp, and hardly able to sit up.

I switched 1001 positions just to get a little bit more comfortable, but all I gotten out of them, were endless weird dreams after another.

But honestly, I wouldn’t say it was all bad, because, honestly, this was perhaps one of those dreams that.. played with my senses to the extent that, hey, I really wouldn’t mind existing in that world and make it my real world, however warped that sounds.

I think the human senses are mightily amazing. And the mind, is nothing short of devastatingly powerful.

I have come to the end of my hormones-tormented phase today, though it had eased off the emotional part, it didn’t ease on the physical part.

As I rolled around in bed and dozing off, I slipped into quite an amazing dream. Quite exhausting, I might add.

Much of the bits and pieces of it are pretty hazy, but I remember waking up from it because it was getting too much for me, yet when I slipped back to unconsciousness, the dream seemed to take a life of its own, and ended up continuing itself.

I think I was one of ‘em vampires in the Twilight-inspired dream. Albeit a localized version one.

I remember some usual faces of people around my life, and we were in track pants and all, hanging out.

In buildings that are perhaps those you find in US, or just unfortunately, in my imagination. Lotsa concrete building, and a sports hall.

And I remember “discovering” my gift for my speed, agility, and ability to look up a tall building, my speed would be enough to bring me up there, not unlike flying.

So yes, it was like Twilight plus Heroes, plus a tinge of Superman.

Some one was staring at me, and as I was worried about my cover being blown (it is a dangerous world out there you know?), I was apprehensive of trying.

Yet, the someone came over and taught me how to, before I realised, he too, was “one of us“, and from the look of his, it is truly a lonely world out there.

And then I managed to “fly” up the building as I tried hard to focus.

Okay, here comes the amazing part of the dream.

In the dream, I remember wondering what if I failed, but I did take off, and I was assured that nothing will happen except plenty of embarrassment, since I can’t possibly, uhm, die (in the dream, that is).

So I tried looking up the building.

And I remember that feeling very well.

You know how when you take roller coaster rides and how gravity-defying it felt?

I felt that vividly in my dream. I could feel the quickened breath, the drop of the heart (okay, fine, I know vampires heart don’t work anymore, but duh), and the wind in my hair, and that split second, I was up on the building despite my fear of heights.

I then realised I need to train to get used to my new skills and to control it.

And then from then, I started hanging out with my “group”.

I remember there was this another instance, though I was in the dream, I got hungry. And I was lamenting how sad it was cos the food I usually take no longer appeal to me.

AND THEN! Even though it was in the dream, I suddenly smelled something irresistible, and made me incredibly hungry.

Then a group of men walked by.

I held my breath, then I tried to take a strong breath in just to decipher what was that delicious, sweet smile was. I was trying to make sense of new things that appealed to my senses, and those that no longer trigger my senses.

I didn’t do anything to them cos the thought repulsed me, though some of the others of my kind ran away cos the temptation was too great.

Then there was this part some guys were trying to find trouble with us, and fight us. And having someone with bad temper in the group, we had to do all we can to control him so he does not do a “Jasper” ala New Moon.

Think one of the guy accidentally touched me, and he had a rude shock when I didn’t feel like human, and I just turned around to shoot him a stern stare before walking away.

There are many other bits I don’t remember but I remember trying to hide away from someone hostile, and I ended up doing the running onto top of the building thing again.

But cos I was so fast, no one quite saw me, and again, I felt the flying feeling in my dream.

I think my obsession with Twilight vampires had reached a whole new level, but it was the most fun dream I ever had, though I probably was annoyed with feeling the suppression of appetite throughout my dream.

And I woke up at least 5 times in between, but it just went on and on and on.

It was those dreams that felt incredibly real, and you feel as though you had really lived it.

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And yes, it was just a dream.

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I think the groove is back, and so be ready for the tirade of posts to come.

And the new things that will kick start a very exciting year, I believe.

And with the new opportunities knocking, I am apprehensive, but looking forward.

Life is about experiencing, and year 2010, will be one about experiences