Posted in Mental Mutilation on Jun 23rd, 2008 1 Comment »
In the dark, I wasn’t sure whose tears those were anymore.
I can be as destructive as I want, history has a brilliant record of such. Sometimes much more so, even.
Go away. Go away.
Self-protection is such strange, little thing.
It is easy not to be happy, cos you won’t ever wonder if happiness has an […]
Posted in Mental Mutilation on Apr 16th, 2008 3 Comments »
I once strongly denied I am a bimbo.
But huh, my clumsiness/cluelessness/blurness seems to up a notch these days. Especially today.
Sometimes I laugh at myself. Sometimes when I am laughing at myself together with others, I feel a slight pinch within as I tried not to let my tears make their way out.
Whoever knows tears could […]
Posted in Mental Mutilation, Making Sense of Life on Apr 4th, 2008 2 Comments »
… it still is surreal.
Yesterday, I saw a poignant series of pictures on Tetanus’ site. Life before death made me slow my lightning pace in the office, and took my breath away.
Most of the pictures are taken weeks before they passed on, or some, even days.
So many questions ran through my head. How did they […]
Posted in Mental Mutilation on Jan 30th, 2008 4 Comments »
Did you, and will you, ever like me for me?
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Remember when we were young
How you asked everyone to marry you
All of those songs we sung
Changing all the words you used to make the heroine die
Why?
Remember when we were right
God threw his darts at stars in the night
I had a kite
You had a trampoline and a […]
Posted in Mental Mutilation on Jan 25th, 2008 3 Comments »
I sat on the kerb in the carpark where it all once started.
Heels, pencil skirt, with a blazer to shield me from the intrusive breeze. Accessorised with plenty of fatigue.
There was a brightly litted, round moon, not a soul in sight. There were a few stars littered across the sky, flickering as if struggling not […]
Posted in Mental Mutilation on Jan 19th, 2008 No Comments »
I don’t know you anymore.
I never did, and perhaps, never will.
Posted in Mental Mutilation on Jan 1st, 2008 7 Comments »
Happy New Year everyone!
I felt no joy, no difference, not excitement for the end of an amazing year.
And for the resolution I made to my girlies for new year night, let’s just say that I fulfilled it. Uhm, somehow(though must give discount).
It was quite an interesting night, where I was tired, lost and, insecure.
I ended […]
Posted in Mental Mutilation on Dec 31st, 2007 3 Comments »
I am actually crying myself silly right now.
Right after breakfast.
I feel so silly.
And it is out of nowhere.
So scary.
I think it is such an incredible year.
It really is.
Posted in Mental Mutilation on Nov 23rd, 2007 No Comments »
It was just a random scene on television.
It was just a random song from the CD playing in the car.
It was just…. a book.
Posted in Mental Mutilation on Nov 17th, 2007 2 Comments »
I thought. That was why.
But I was proven otherwise.
Denial. Maybe. Perhaps. Maybe. Just maybe. Even the smallest maybe.
What was my expected reaction? No reaction. I am supposed to be a rag doll to anyone. I am supposed to be void of any reactions. No fuss. No trouble. No… whatever. I am not a barbie doll, […]